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| Event Title: | American Craiglist Personals |
| Hosting Organization: | Iblog |
| Starting Date: | 01/30/2020 |
| Ending Date: | 01/30/2020 |
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| Event Location: | , Texas US |
| Description: | Now let's dissect this letter, from the beginning. She said she seen a stronger and wiser man. I sure fooled her. That wasn't strength, it was a drunk man, hiding from the pain. Addiction.
Dating PersonalsMorgantown craiglist personals New Hampshire craiglist personals Los Angeles craiglist personals Louisville craiglist personals Next she states that I got her pregnant on purpose, which is true. But she was only 18 and still in high school. I was 25. Selfish of me. Didn't even let the girl graduate with style! My desire to be a father overcame reason and I stole it from her. Bad decision, a direct result of.....Addiction.Singles OnlineLet's skip to the last paragraph....what it is she done for me. She took full responsibility of making all the funeral arrangements for my father. Why? For one, she loves me and wanted to be there for me. But the real reason...I was too busy drinking and feeling sorry for myself to do it myself. Addiction. We can even learn from the P.S. in this letter. She states that I cause her stress and sleep loss. Very true, even still this day. She also says that I am worth every bit of it. Am I? What good is love is there is to be so much pain that comes with it? There were complications during our second pregnancy. She went into early labor and was hospitalized. We were both scared. But I wasn't there for her when she needed me most. Instead of being in that lonely hospital room with her, I was out coping with it in my own way...drinking and smoking. In fact, that is what I did for the entire pregnancy. Addiction.Craiglist PersonalsYou see the trend here? Addiction plays a part in everything. And so now the question remains...am I ready to give it up? Well, let me just say this. All my life, I have always told myself that I will be the one to break the cycle, that addiction won't get the best of me. It has. Only when it's too late to admit it, do I see the grand picture, which is normally the case for all addicts. We must first experience first hand how it truly affects our lives before we realize that it's a problem. Rock bottom. Two beers and a doob wrecked my life. No matter how much I try to downplay it, I have a problem. Addiction. And so, yes, I'm ready to give it up. It may be too late for her, but lesson learned, it will never happen again, no matter where I go from here! The heartache I have caused for myself, and for her, is too much to bear. And now I have to live with it. I could never live with myself should this same thing happen again, whether I'm still with my wife or in any other relationship. And now the final question? Do I really want to be with her? We have had our share of ups and downs, as would any marriage. There have been times when I have questioned if I truly want to be with her. And I must question that now. Romance died years ago, taking our love for granted. We are married now, she knows I love her, so why bother doing all those little things that shows her just how much I love her. Addiction. Yes, that's right, addiction even killed the romance! I became lazy. I would rather spend my time getting high and relaxing with a beer, when instead, I should be helping her with dishes, folding laundry, planning romantic evenings together. What is romantic about a guy who gets drunk and stoned, and then wants to bed you and call it an evening? When I look at that letter, I am reminded of how much she loves me. She would bow at my feet and do anything for me. She has a heart of gold. She cares so much about people. She is always there for anybody, ready to help in any way she can. She even wants to join search parties for missing people half way across the state! Her heart and how she cares about people is genuine. She has a smile to die for! She is beautiful. She is funny. I can tell her anything. There is no other person in the world with which I can be so open and honest. She is my best friend. My heart melts whenever I see her. The way she loves me represents all that love should be. Her love for me was so pure and so true, that I took it for granted, thinking there is nothing that would ever come between us. And what's more, I know in my heart that, should our marriage come to an end and we start seeing other people, I will always compare whoever dares to date me, to her. And I know they will never measure up. They will never be my Megan. What we have, and how I feel about her can never be replaced. She is my true love, my better half, my strength, my everything! I think that makes it clear...I'm head over heels for this woman! I love her with every bit of my heart! There were times when it wasn't so clear, but it is clear to me now. I made our marriage into what it is and it can't be undone. I have hurt her in so many ways and failed to see it! I am so passionately in love with her, and the fact that I hurt her and drove her away, is truly a shame. I wish I could go back and make it right, give her the life she deserves, and live happily ever after. I wish. But the damage is done and I could end up spending the rest of my life searching for another Megan, hurting more people along the way, because they will never compare to her. My words can no longer save me, only my actions. It don't matter about the ungodly amount of love I try to pour onto her, only where I go from here will determine our fate. I will do anything for this woman, and now is the time to prove it. Sacrifices must be made, difficult ones at that. I also realize that these drastic changes I'm taking on are for myself, not just for her. I know that if I do this just for her, I will only cause more pain. I have also come to terms that, there may not be a future for Mr. and Mrs. Workingdan, and so henceforth, anything I do must be for myself. I still can't imagine a life without her but if that is what's to be, then so help me God, I come out of this a better person. On the brighter side of things, we do have an appointment for counseling near the end of the month. That is about the only glimmer of hope I have right now. She needs her time and space, which is the hardest part. I find it hard to do that. I want to talk to her constantly. She is my best friend after all, and when I need to talk, I go to her. I have been suffocating her, not allowing her time to think. Bad move on my part. It is so hard to leave someone be when your heart longs to be with them. As I move forward and look to begin my life again, I want to thank all of you for joining me on this journey to save a marriage and your continued support is quite helpful! I will give all that I am into bringing you a happy ending as I'm quite sure you are tired of all this sadness. Now if you don't mind, I have work to do people, which unfortunately, could result in less updates for the time being. If she goes for good, so does the computer. So for your sake, because you all love this blog so much, pray for a happy ending, lest you be deprived of all the fine material in this blog! Love is the most powerful and addicting drug of all. I choose love over everything else! Until next time, blog safely my friends! |
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